A loving heart is the truest wisdom.
-Charles Dickens

chillax



siakkkk!

On Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Yesterday was the releasing of malay Olevel results.
My results was damn bad. I got b3. WHAT THE HELL?!
I aim for A sia, but in the end, i got B. And ya, i cried in school yest. 
But please, i'm not attracting attention ekh. I just can't take it. I'm disappointed with my results and myself. Firman &Zakiah got one grade higher than me, which was A2. Bodoh kann aku? B3 siakk. *sigh And today, i've decided to retake that subject at the end of the year. :(
After school, i text Fahmi. Ask him about his results. But he didn't reply. At night, i felt really pissed off with him.  wtf. i waited for his msg from afternn till night. At least use someone's hp to reply me ahh. He didn't text me for about one week already and when i msg him yest, he didn't reply. It's not that i like him or what ah. But i just want him to reply me so that i know that he's still contacting with me. alaaaamak! Bingit siakk. Seriously, yesterday was a very horrible day for me.

Today after school, Fahmi msg me using his friend's phone. I'm still not in the good mood, so, i ignore his msg. Now, i'm onlining. and he just online. I Start the conversation first you know. hmmph! But after chatting with him for sometimes, i felt better. :D

till then.
bye

the rabbit, and the squiperd.

On Sunday, August 10, 2008

Tell me why you're like avoiding me? Tell me, did you hate me?
Tell me, why don't you look at me?
Tell me, why don't you smile at me?
Tell me, am i still the one you wished to be with or someone else?
Tell me, am i important to you?
Tell me, did you still miss me?
Tell me, did i still appear in your dream?
Tell me, am i still in your heart?
Tell me. Tell me all the truth about me!




Baby, i miss you. You came into my dream countless of time. Whenever i go to the place where i know you would go, i wished that you would be there. Unfortunately, all the wish gone when i reach home. I didn't get what i want. I often feel sad, and sometimes, i do cried. Only one thing that can stop me from crying. Its when i tell myself, there's always a next time. I'm sure that God knows what's the best for me.
When i saw you during match, i always want to see you look and smile at me. But, all that are impossible because every time i look at you, you'll make yourself busy by kicking balls. My wish are not accomplished again. ):
Dear, i always tell them that you're only a friend to me, but no! It is all lies. So, this means that whenever i say to you that you're just my friend, it's not true. I said that just because i want my feelings towards you to fade away. But all my efforts are just useless. I'm so sorry that i 've lied to you. I hope you understand.
Oh ya, do you still remember, during our last conversation you said that you will say something to me one day? Dear, I'll always wait for that one day to come. Whether its a sad or a very happy news, i will always accept it. Whenever i pray, i'll always ask the best for you from god. I've prayed for you to be the best soccer player in the world, if not, at least in S'pore. And that you'll pass your N level. So that it can prove to your dad that you can success in both soccer and studies.
And dear, do you still remember that you always call me rabbit, and i call you squiperd, which was squidward? I treasure the moments when we chatted, and talked otp. IMY!
Muhd Al Faiz Bin Ishak, maybe this is just an infatuation, but i still wanna say that, i really, really love you.
If you doesn't love me anymore, i hope that you would tell me. Just tell me the truth. I prefer being sad for something that i know rather than being happy for something that i don't really sure of.


Yours Faithfully,
Siti Zulaiha Binte Asahari

Dear diary

On Saturday, August 09, 2008
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAY SINGAPORE! :D

haha. semangat sey aku.
today, i stayed at home and had some rest. This whole week, i've been busy with life sia.

Monday, i have emaths mock exam. Tues, went to gym and played soccer. Wed, went to watch coe north u16 vs u18. Thurs, shopping with nikki and ziiee. And yesterday, the sec 4/5s had interclass 7-aside soccer competition and in the evening, watch match between COE north and west, both u18. So, i've decided not to go anywhere today. heh

Wed match between coe north u18 and u16 was like fcuk. we got scolded by Robert. He shouted at us and make us go out of skss field. Some of the u18 guys heard it. Paisey sial! Fuck you lah Robert Gay!

Yesterday's competition was great! haha My class won as champion sia. :D Our final was with E4, which was shamim's class. Shalini scored for us. Thanks ah babe. haha

In the evening, Syaa and me went to Bukit Timah Field[BTF] to watch match. we doesn't know how to get there, so we asked the people in the information counter at Yishun Mrt sttn. But the person who is a she, say that she didn't know how to get there either bcause we didn't have the exact address. She told us to alight at Newton as i ask her which sttn to stop if we want to go to the old turf city. But we didn't listen to her bcause we didn't think that the old turf city was in Newton. We took mrt and alight at choa chu kang. Then we asked the person at the info counter there, they also don't know how to get there. But this time, she showed us a map. And finally we found it. We took taxi. And got scolded by that apekk. In a loud voice, he said that the old turf city was big. why we didn't know the exact address and etc. We just ignore him and answered his questions. At last, we saw one big field.Its them who was playing. We saw one bustop which was located near the field. WTH? why did the smrt people don't know the place? At least one of the people i've asked should have know the place sia. *sigh But nevertheless, i thank the smrt people at Choa Chu Kang info counter. If she didn't show us the map, we wouldn't have reach BTF. We walk inside the field, and saw some pak cik watching the match. i ask one of the uncle wether we can watch or not. He replied to me in malay, "boleh. Kalau nk tido pun boleh". I thought he's a chinese sey, that's why i talk in english. haha We sat behind the goalpost. Raffi was the goal keeper for Coe North. Syaa go and take picture, as usual. :D During half time, wak star and friend walk towards us. They're not going to us, but to refill the container with water. heh They walk back using the same route. Syaa wanted to ask Wak about Vintage Starcy[VS] but her mouth can't open. So, i help her call Wak. Syaa ask and after that, they went back. Lucky they're friendly. haha Suddenly, i saw ard 4 guys walking to the goalpost near us. One of them was Al. My heatbeat suddenly change its speed. They practise their passes, and shooting, and all the things they should be practising ah. Al didn't wear the jersey they should be wearing for that match. He did have a slight cough for several times. So, i consider that he's not feeling well. aww, kesian kau. If you're really sick, get well soon aite. I can't message you bcause i'm scared. Scared of everything. After half time, he sit at the place where the players sat. He didn't look at me sia. Am i that ugly till you doesn't even want to look at me? *sigh I don't know what to say anymore. The match end with a score of 3-0, and of course coe west won. Before going out of the field, we waited for VS, Syaa's friend. She doesn't know which one was VS. So, i asked her to ask Wak and at last, she know who's VS. They waved at each other and we went off. We went to the match actually bcause of west, not north eh. (: We took some pictures while waiting for the bus to come. We didn't take the bus which comes first bcause it was pack with people. So we take the second bus which come ard 10mins after the first bus. We took the same bus with the Coe North guys. When we reach Wdlds, syaa waited for Yat at the control sttn and i went home. :D

Today, i woke up at 11. I had body ache. Pains here and there, just becuase i didn't warm up for yest competition. *sigh Bodoh siak aku.
Hmm kay. Here are the pictures for yesterday.
:)


While watching soccer






OKAY BYE! :)

Selamat Pengantin Baru Kak Rien And Abg Nadzrol.

On Monday, August 04, 2008
Just came back from kampong yest afternoon. My Lovely Angah got married on Friday. ): Oh, so sad. I can't sleep with her, and i can't hug her like i usually did when sleeping. I want her to be single! *sigh But what to do, she's already married. And i'll make sure abg Nadz will take care of her. haha macam paham. During the akad Nikah, i almost cried. Tok kadi ask her parents to say something to abg Nadz. And my auntie cried while saying a few words. That's the moment where i almost cried. After that, the ceremony went on smoothly. And you know what? The theme for the wedding ceremony is pink/purple. Sweet right? haha ~
Ehem-ehem. i wanted to say something abt someone. It's Ang Nadz younger brother. His name is Suhaimi. He's also sec 4. :D He's very nice! Looks friendly. I knew him since last year, if im not wrong, during abg Nadz friends wedding. kak sue, me, and Suhaimi, followed them. He was so kental. But that's what i like. Kental is cute. haha I hope i can be close to him, what i mean is as in sedare because i really like his attitude. very polite. :) 
Hmm back to my cousins wedding ceremony. i was damn busy on saturday. I felt tired but i'm lovin' it. I had fun with my cousins and family. :) I simply loves family gathering. haha On Sunday morning, i was ask to wake up. We need to go back to S'pore asap. Ade lagi satu jemputan yg nk kene pergi. (= Before leaving kampong, all of us took picture together. And when i kiss angah on the cheeks, my tears start to roll down. idkw. suddenly i felt really sad. But luckily i can still control the feeling. I also kissed kak sue, on the cheeks. And then went into the car. We reached S'pore at ard 3plus pm. We ate at the wedding, and then went home. :D


love,    
zulaiha