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ain dgn aku sama. eh?

On Saturday, February 28, 2009
I love yesterday! Ishamuddins' belated birthday surprise doesn't look like a surprise to him, i know. But you were happy kan zat? hehs. Being around with Sof, A!, Mim, Syaa and Krkic himself make my day goes ooohlala~. HAHA Faiz, and Ains' brother Syafa'at were there too at first, but they have to leave off early. I perspire alot yesterday, i had a very busy afternoon. I skipped school just because of ****.
I didn't want to separate with the gereks(them) at first. Unfortunately, i have something to attend to which is my grandpas' kenduri arwah. ooooh sedihnyerrrrrr. But, when i reached home and ask mum about the kenduri thingy, she said we're not going. Apelagi, darah up ah. Nasib semua ade hal, kalau tak menyesal gue pulang awal. haha. Okay, harap selepas ini semua dapat bermeeting bersama-sama lagi! :] xoxoxoxoxoxoxo


ADIOS

:)

On Friday, February 27, 2009

Nurhazimahs' birthday surprise in her room yesterday was what i expected. She cried.

We were all very excited when she was about to enter her room. But before that, she was scolding her brother for making the pizza hut guy to wait for "him" outside her house for 10minutes. You notice the open and close inverted commas on the word him- it was actually for Aisyah, she was the one who ordered the pizza. haha We have so much fun that evening. We laughed till my tears of joy run down my cheeks. I'm glad that she is happy. especially when she saw Zakiah, her childhood bf were together with us. ^^ i sayang you lah girl. heh
bye

sayang.

On Friday, February 27, 2009
HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY NURHAZIMAH HAMZAH!


Babe, did you like what we did yesterday? I am very sorry because we didn't surprise you on the actual day of your birthday. We have some reasons that can't be escape. ^^ &I love you baby! I wish you all the best in everything you do alright. And stay pretty always! :D


love,
Bestfriend Z.

Be a good boy, Jat. :D

On Wednesday, February 25, 2009
SELAMAT HARI ULANG TAHUN MUHAMMAD IZZAT ISHAMUDDIN!
Playboy no more, insyaallah. Never hurt girls feeling anymore hor. Hope you won't forget us(school friends) especially me even if we're not in the same school or in any case that make us look uncontacted. ALL THE BEST IN EVERYTHING YOU DO. Never ever give up in life okay. Forever(and ever) with A! Ain eh boy. :) Aku Sayang Kaulah! HAHA
zulaiha

i love you vm.

On Saturday, February 21, 2009
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NURAISYAH BINTE RAHMAT!

i didn't give you a card, and not yet been given you a gift. so i hope you could wait for it. i know the surprise ain't my idea. but i still hope you won't neglect me just beacuse of that. you should know that i'm bad at planning things. hahah!

dear, i hope that you'll succeed in whatever you do in the future. never ever forget to tell me any of your problems. i'll always be there to help you in any ways i could, if it makes you feel so much better. i have been given a gift from god, that is YOU(and her). and i hope we will treasure our bestfriendship till death. i love you, and nurhazimah hamzah alot!



love,
zu.

BestestFriend.

On Sunday, February 08, 2009
BESTFRIEND.
Hmm. Gosh, I'm stuck. I don't want to lose her but at the same time I'm tired of being the one who cares. I know different people has different styles, interest, etc. But I was hoping your soccer was not gonna be the result of neglecting me though I've had the feeling of drifting 3 years ago. Only because we were still tight. Yeah yeah, you may say I'm sensitive or whatever. But it's only because I care. I care about our 3 years of bestfriendship and you. Dang, I don't really know what to say. To me, bestfriends are also considered like a boyfriend(No, I'm not a lesby! -_-). That is why I get angry/upset when you forget about minor little things about me, like not asking me whether I wanna buy something or go to recess even though I usually don't, and when you seem to get closer to someone else then ignores me in a way. All because I was jealous that you cared about something/one else than me. Call me selfish or foolish but that is not gonna change me. The way I am. I thought you have understood and accepted me 3 years ago. I'm a pampered girl who needs love and attention. Though not in the attention-seeker way eh. -_- Also, I don't really express my love and concern to friends. I find it hard. I don't know why. -_- But I expect them to know that and that I love them to bits, including you. It looks like you're getting closer with someone else due to the same interest. I don't mind that. If I do, I wouldnt've been suffering in silence for the past 3 years, damnit. Yes, you may say I have a lot of friends(In your opinion. Not mine) or I always have other bestfriends and to go out with. I suppose you never realise that you are always my Number One. You never share your stories with me anymore. No more updates of you. Last time, you would be excited or even tell me straight away through sms or a call about any stories you wanna tell. Like bestfriends do. However, now, it seems like I have to ask you. I have to ask you questions in order for us to have a conversation. WTF. When I realised, someone else know more about you and your updates, I get sad. When I get to know you guys have special somethings which didn't include me, not anymore when last time it was the 3 of us, I get sad. When you guys treated me like I wasn't there, I get sad. And etc. I told you 3's a crowd. I feel lonely now even when you guys are with me cos' I don't seem to be important to know anything you guys are talking about even to you. Sometimes, I was left walking/sitting alone cos' you guys are talking about something that no one bothers to tell me. None of you even notice. (Y) No more "Wanna watch a match with us?" and etc. I know I don't share the same interest with you guys but you could have at least include me in your plans. Just to make me feel that I do matter to you guys and that you miss hanging out with me cos' we lack of outings together lately. Nevermind, I'd still be left out cos' you guys will be having intense conversation with the rest. Bestfriends talk non-stop about anything under the sun but now, that seemed to change for us. WTFH happened to us? You tell me. I've never changed my feelings towards this friendship. -Nurhazimah Hamzah


God. after another problem, came another problem.
*sigh.

uurg! i'm sorry NHBH if i'm also the one who cause all this. well, actually, i don't know where to start. i don't even know if that post for me or for her. i'm truly sorry. well, i guess, from now on i will just be on my own so that both of you guys will not boycott each other. i hate it when this is happening. i'm sorry if you felt left out whenever you are in school. & i'm sorry for not knowing your feelings. i should not talked about my interest anymore. but you see, well, i don't want to start this emotional thing. but i think i just need to let is out so that i will feel much better. you said that you felt left out, sometimes i also do felt left too. i don't want to mention when. and i felt sad. not sad but i have this kind of feelings la, i don't know what feelings is that, whenever i go to your blog or profiles, i will always be the last girl on your list. but, yah, it's fine with me. seriously, it's fine..

well, whatever it is, i want everything to be okay by this coming Monday. -Nuraisyah Rahmat


BFs, i have lots of things to say. Let's settle this conflict face to face. But before that happen, i want to let you girls know that you should be pointing fingers at ME. Not anyone else. I'm not emoing here, but that is the fact. If you think back, you'll definately blame it on me. That's okay for me. But with one condition, we girls end up being close/closer than before. I LOVE YOU GIRLS LIKE I LOVE MY FAMILY. So please. I really really REALLY hope that we would settle this thing fast, with a very happy ending.

-edited, 190309-
Now, i heard that you're blaming everythings on me. Like i have said, i am fine. But, where did the condition goes to? Dustbin eh? Haha. I'm disappointed. I know you are more disappointed, but you should just tell me right in the face. Eventhough i'll cry on that moment. *sigh* It's okay. We're broken apart bcs of me. :) Redha aje. Thank you very much for being my best bestfriend. I'll still love you babe. Takecare ^^

Yours Truly,
Zulaiha.

mood: heartbroken?

On Saturday, February 07, 2009
"He won't leave you for something that is not VERY important, serious. IF he truly loves you, he'll come back to your life one day. Believe in my words babe."

Dude, i believe in your words. But i have lose confidence right now. Reading his story could make me cry. F u c k

two weeks ago,
Ily: What if both of you go to the same poly in the future?
Zul: Huh? What for? To make me feel hurt to the infinity if he is with another girl?
Ily: Does'nt mean what. You rather make yourself happy than making him happy ah?
Zul: *thinking* Hmmm..

Babe, now i know the answer of the question that i should be thinking long time ago. Thanks for making me realise about that yeahh. I realise that i would rather make him happy than making my own self smile. I LOVE HIM. &till now, no one can change my feelings towards him. If being with other girl would make him happy, i'll accept it. Come on, i won't force a guy to love me. That is not my way lah. I prefer feeling down if the situation would only make my own self satisfied. But confirm there is disappointment taking place in my heart. At Least A Bit. So i should be strong, stronger than before. if i want to see HIM HAPPY.